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I wanna hair cut! [07 Mar 2007|08:18pm]
Im thinking short? Who knows! This spring break suckksss im so bored!

On the other hand, it has been rather refreshing to do absolutely nothing. I don't know, someone gimme a call!

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My goodness. [04 Mar 2007|08:19pm]
Livejournal, I remember these days!

This weekend has been quite wonderful.

I got to have a wonderful day with Caragh Friday; we went to the beach, to a romantic dinner and just drove around a listened to a collection of wonderful music. Then I went to the Guster show with Rob, and it didn't suck being within a hundred feet from him!! And then I got to talk to Ryan on the phone and it was superb, he's doing awesomee!!

Yea, so....Saturday was bitchin. Work sucked, as usual, I had a customer that didn't tip, DONT WORRY FOLKS I CAN TOTALLY LIVE OFF OF 2.35 AN HOUR! Thennnn, we went to the Grind (Becca, Caragh, and I) and then to Becca where we proceedded to have laughfest '07. IT WAS GRANDE!! A day where I see my three bestest friends in the whole world is a day for me, and boy was Saturday my kinda day!

Todayyyyyyyy: Becca and I went to uncle cha chas for some Saaa-weet breakfast! Then we drove around and thennnn met up with Kira and went to visit Ryan, and he's awesome. I printed out my Chris Penn picture and he found it pre-tty funny, it was great!

All aroud a wonderful weekend. YAYS!!

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Fruity [29 Jul 2006|12:11am]
WHy is it that they put the largest quantities of the suckiest fruits into fruit cups?

I'm sitting here eating a fruit cup and there ONE fucking grape...ONE!!! Only two peices of pineapples and like a few pecies of strawberries. But yuhh theres a plethora of fucking melon bullshit in my fruitcup!! ALWAYS FUCKING UP MY FRUIT CUP!
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[27 Jul 2006|05:28pm]
I don't understand my phone. I look at it constantly, but it never rings. Is it not working, or am I not working? Perhaps even my friends, are they, too, not working? I can't figure out what the hell it is about me that is so damn disposable. I am the perfect person to hang out with under others convieniences, and I am fucking sick of it. Please do not be mistaken here, I'm not begging for your pitty. In fact it would only further depress me as I am willing to bet a million dollars that anyone still writing and reading on livejournal has not called me in a damn good while, and hung out with me in even longer than that.

So what is it? What about me has pushed people away? Why do I find myself sitting here, listening to sufan stevens, complaining and feeding into the type of person I hate, becoming that person, feeling bad for myself while pleading with a few to provide me with some kind of..I don't even know what. Am I that much of a bitch, that annoying, that boring, that easy to rid your mind of. I think about people: my friends, family, people I have met, people I have heard about. And then I think about who could be thinking of me, and my mind draws a blank. When I think of people, I drop them a line or drop by their house or message them or something. Legit, you can check my phone bills, there's hardly ever any incoming calls that aren't from work or my mother. How fucking pathetic. I wish I could blame other people, just convince myself that I have just unluckily wound up with a bunch of bad friends, but when the number is larger than one or two, it has to be me. Why bother making friends, they just end up turning their backs to me anyways. You know what I have done since like Sunday night? Sat, watched a depressing movie,listened to stupid, fucking pretentious music and thought about things I have dont wrong that have brought me to this point. Alone, no calls, I go online-not one IM, I check my email-nothing, I check my myspace-nothing, I check my caller ID-nothing.

I'm restless, the time can't come soon enough when I kiss this shithole called the South Shore goodbye and move to the city. There, I am just a number anyways, so if I have no friends it just doesn't even matter. I'm sick of being the one always trying, the one always making plans, the one asking 20+ people if they want to hang out only to end up sitting alone in a dark room staring at a blank computer screen anyways. If I stop trying, then at least I wont feel as bad when I end up here. As much of a bitch as I can be, I still think I can be a damn good friend, and you know what? If people aren't interested in that than it's time for me to throw in the towel with all that bull shit and leave them and those stupid fucking memories of times when I felt like people liked me as I have left high school. All that shit is over, I am fucking over it. I'm sick of begging, I don't know why I've let myself beg so much. No more making plans, no more calling, and, unless met half way, no more trying.
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[27 Jul 2006|04:44pm]
Im goin clubbing tommorow with some girlies from work. Haha

Lets hang out during the day?
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You know whats funny? [24 Jul 2006|02:04am]
I found this (http://brio-elan.livejournal.com/32179.html) listed as my one "memory" so I opened it, and its about..well you can read it its short, and yea..that made me chuckle, solely on the comment left like months later, who wrote that, any ideas? I'd love to know, kind of funny to read it all now.

yea, weird.

AAAAND now to look back on it all and see that I am purged of all that crap the only way I can express myself is by quoting one of my favorite movies: "FRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEDOOOOOOMMMM!"
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Allright [23 Jul 2006|10:38pm]
So you guys read this thing, shweet!

In that case, let's hang out. I'm watching Memoirs of a Geisha with Jess, Yvonne and BECCA!! Get in touch with me, we'll make plans, I wanna see old faces again!

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[22 Jul 2006|11:51pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I love working at a video store. I watch movies like its my job, but it really is my job, hahaha. That is such a beautiful thing.

I wish I had someone to watch all these movies with, maybe then I'd sleep at night. I'm so sick of being tired all the time, and daydreaming more than I'm actually living.

AAAAND I hate waitressing, it makes my legs hurt. I'm starting running again with Emily Tuesday. I miss yoga, it's been weeks since I've found the time to practise it.


PS: I say this in full confidence that abso-fucking-lutely no one reads this damn thing. Nonetheless, I say, whatever.

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sooo [21 Jul 2006|01:56am]
It's hitting me...

I am really going to colloge, in Boston. It's unreal, but so SO real.

I'm pumped, yea Massart!
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TODAY!! [19 Jul 2006|11:55pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Today was a wonderful dayCollapse )

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[30 Jan 2006|05:53pm]
its been a wicked long time.

last week:
wed-got a flat tire
thurs-my radio blew
fri-totalled my car
sat- brke up with rob, for good, and quit my job....

after a horrible sunday with no good or bad my monday was good, i got a gold key for my portfolio and a silver key for my painting on scholastic art awards.

time for a new beginning, and im excited, its all gonna be different now.


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k [25 Jul 2005|01:07am]
A girl died in 1933 by a homicide murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded.
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Bands of the week [08 May 2005|08:51pm]
gang of four
the ravonettes

my birthday was good, ew peircings, i want more. Who knew bleeding could be fun?
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[09 Apr 2005|10:50pm]
its 2 am why does the comuter say 1030
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[09 Apr 2005|10:22pm]
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[09 Apr 2005|10:16pm]
[ mood | high ]

its been a while

for a number of things

i am baked

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[02 Apr 2005|07:29pm]
The pope is dead.

I cried last night watching new coverage of the vatican...why i am not sure.

along with him, a part of my soul for the past few years has died
something that made me even more upset.

MJK has found jesus. allegedly, and tool will take a back seat to it for him.

read up on these
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A day of Rehabilitation [22 Mar 2005|05:02pm]
220,557,634 cough drops and many, many doses of cheap robituson knock-off cough medicine later...

...I have an awful taste in my mouth...


...there is a wondeful taste in my heart. I feel spring in the air from my shaped-to-body matress. My new window in my new bedroom in my new apartment in my new, old town has a fantastic view. Every day when I wake up, I open up the blinds and the window and just welcome in the sunshine and sounds of morning. I can not wait till summer.

SO my fantastic {[FEW]} readers, I fear it has been far too long since Ive seen some oldie but goodie friends. If you agreee, leave a message! Ill ran, walk, jog, whatever to see ya!!

Name a time and place my friends, Im feeling adventurous *eyebrow raise, elbow shove*
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[09 Mar 2005|01:02pm]

Also, I amCollapse )
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[09 Mar 2005|06:24am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Ive made some mistakes, some bigger then others. But I was such a coward and there was one mistakeI was just running from. I feel like such a fake, a fraud, an awful, untrustworthy person to the one person in my life that matters.

Rob Ellenberg is the single most kindest, gentlest person I have ever known. I love him so much and I never wanna mess this up again. Life without him would be life with nothing. The quality of it with him in it is far better than the quality of it without him. He makes me so happy and content. He is curtious, kind, wise, beautiful, forgiving and all around amazing. I feel like I can never return him the favor of simply being in my life. Im sorry for all the bad times and all I wanna do is just make him happy. imsosorryrobiloveyou.

-counting the days to the weekend as always
--.robs kaileen.

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